Simplicity

It's funny, I thought I had a lot more to say, but when you make writing a post a big deal it becomes intimidating. This is not productive.  Am I writing for me? does it really have to be life changing???  Isn't it all life changing?

I couldn't be happier with the turn my life is taking. I have been lucky enough to see that  you really are not alone.  What a gift!  When you are in need of support you actually see how many people are by your side to lift you up, surrounding you with a big bear hug of pure selfless love. It will blow you away and make you very humble.  It is hard to believe you deserve the outpouring of  love and support that comes your way.  You do (kind of?) and you don't deserve it at all, this is grace. Making less money?  Living more frugally, where your choices are more important and you  make do with quite a bit less!  Less is more, it is really true! I did not think of myself as acquisitive.  I have come to realize that  you can appreciate without owning, and owning actually brings more responsability and time draining maintenance.  More can require more, leaving you with less that is important to you!  Enjoying a park, bike ride, time with someone you admire, feed your soul, fill your heart, not your living space. So many things to be grateful for!

Sooooooooooooo.  Coming to terms with simplicity.  I talked to a Shaman practitioner who told me the message she kept getting for me was SIMPLIFY.  The words were cathartic and actually brought me to tears in a way I could not understand.  I thought I lived simply at that point. I was mistaken, I am learning what "simplify" means, and hope to continue learning.  The world is taking on an incredible color!  It all sounds so hokey, but challenging what you take for granted is the best thing that can happen to you.

The friends and family that Chris and I have surrounded us with love and the desire to help.  You think you feel best when you are in control and can help others (in control is a illusion by the way).  That feeling is amazing, but is nothing when you compare it to the feeling you have when you think there is no hope and are overwhelmed with friends and family who come out of the woodwork  to make sure you are okay.  They help you fix your basement after a flood, they fly miles to help you deal with the debris, they tell you all the time that you are worth while after losing a job, they listen to you day after day on the phone while you question "when will this end???"  They give up extra bedrooms so that you have an easier move, they hoist huge boxes on their shoulders to help make sure your new living space is a home, they send sandwiches because they know that funding a move even with pizza and beer could be a hardship when you have "been through it."  They are the "village" that it takes to make you feel hope.  I am so wealthy with love and care from others it is awe inspiring!

I continue to learn and embrace the flow.